Peace, Joy and Love

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Holiday Nails!

If we took a holiday
Took some time to celebrate
Just one day out of life
It would be
It would be so nice

Holiday (Madonna)

I’ve had such a wonderful Christmas, it’s been an entire week of a great vacation. On Christmas Eve, we went to my wonderful sister-in-law and her boyfriends new home in South Carolina. We met my in-laws first who we followed there. It was a great night in their wonderful home. I felt so great, there were several times I had to stop myself so I wouldn’t tear up and ruin my mascara. It was the second time in a very long time that I have had a family Christmas with a good night with no drama and no fighting. The first was last year, at our home. I just had a… I’m trying to find another word for ‘wonderful’ or ‘great’, which is a brilliant problem to have! The night was truly brilliant. I was, of course, me and not hiding. That isn’t an issue anymore and hasn’t for a couple of years now. I was wearing some awesome black riding boots, and I didn’t use a wig or falsies this year. I painted my nails using ⅛” chart tape and despite this being my first time, it turned out pretty well. I know that it worked better than the mylar tape that a lot of nail tutorials say to use and it’s far cheaper, link here. I was very happy not to have to remove my nail lacquer after a couple of days. The photo above is after 5 days of wear, holding up pretty well I think.

 

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Martin, His BF Raven, Rose & Alex. Puppy Lulah.

Top of the year, we all give a cheer
Horns blowin’, tears are flowin’
Spring fever love is here to stay
And it’s so wonderful to have a holiday

Holiday (Kool & the Gang)


Christmas morning was very nice, we brought our son Alex up from SC to stay with us for a few days before he had to return to go back to work. We didn’t do a lot of presents this year, we wanted to have one nice present for each and then small items just for fun. It was kind of nice not breaking ourselves for Christmas presents and I would argue that we had a better time because of it. We ate too much, lounged too much and basically enjoyed the day. Yes, the above is a photo of my children and home. You are welcome for finding a photo which didn’t have our dogs bum staring at you, it was the only one I could find.

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Photo by Nathan Anderson on Unsplash

Christmas time is here
Cities cold give good cheer
In each heart of fire of warmth
A happy holiday
In each heart of fire of warmth
A happy holiday

Happy Holiday (Billy Idol)

I went to my HRT checkup on Friday, only my second time as myself. The first time I was wearing the security blanket of wig/falsies and ample cosmetics. However, this time I was far more comfortable, in fact I didn’t feel self-conscious at all. I did wear cosmetics, but only mascara and eyeliner and tinted lip balm. I was perfectly fine, and I am that way now in public because that security blanket wasn’t providing me security at all, I was just grasping like a child being put into a pool of water. So my doctor talked to me for a while, she is so wonderful. We talked about what my concerns were, if I was feeling alright with the dosages and with the delivery methods (patches for the Estradiol and tablets for the Spironolactone), which I was perfectly fine with and am having no troubles. Then I brought up the Progesterone, specifically micronized Progesterone to add to my HRT. I was a bit hesitant only because I have heard that many doctors will not prescribe it because of a risk of breast cancer associated with the drug. I feel it is worth the risk, since it is low for me and a lot of trans women. It gives me a chance at having enhanced breast growth without surgery. We are starting on Monday, only because the pharmacy had to order it, and I am very excited. I don’t think this is a magic tablet, HRT doesn’t work that way, but I think it helps me have a better chance and that is a more than I had before.

She also ordered blood tests, because if you recall she upped my prescription to two patches because for some reason my estrogen levels went down oddly. Well, as I was telling her, I think that I figured out why. I started using a moisturizing body wash, and it was at that time that I had to start using the medical tape to keep my patch on. I think (and she agrees) that the moisturizer was creating a film that inhibited the absorption of the medication and caused issues with them sticking. So, after the frustration of the patches falling off too easily and having to use medical tape, I scoured the internet to find out what was going on. Turns out on a site for cis women using these patches it is explained pretty well. First, use baby oil and a cotton ball to remove any residue from a previous patch. Then I take a shower, not necessary but it’s my routine. Next, after I dry off, I use rubbing alcohol and a cotton ball to go over the area of where I am going to put the new patch. After waiting for it to completely dry (if you don’t the patch will not stick) I apply the patch. I have not had a single patch fail on me since doing this routine. Consequently, as I told my doctor, I believe that two patches may be now elevating my estrogen levels too high. I haven’t had any ill effects, but too much is as bad a too little and can cause issues. I want my levels to be correct. Breasts don’t grow because you force estrogen, in fact it can slow down the process. I believe, and I will post when I find out, that my estrogen levels are too high and I will be going back to one patch instead of two.

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My father Jim, brother Scott (punching) and me, cheering.

The moon is right
The spirit’s up
We’re here tonight
And that’s enough
Simply having a wonderful Christmas time
Simply having a wonderful Christmas time

Wonderful Christmastime (Sir Paul McCartney)

I miss my parents, I miss that my brothers didn’t bother contacting me at all this year. But I have so much to be thankful for, I have such a wonderful family that is there for me. I have friends and family that support me when I truly don’t feel like I deserve it. But I am so eternally grateful to them, for their support and love and understanding. I love them so much, both Chris and Donna, my parent-in-laws. We don’t see eye to eye politically, but they support me and love me. It’s something I will always be grateful for. My sister-in-law, Taylor, and her boyfriend, Evan, are fantastic and I’m hopeful I get a chance to wear a nice dress to their (Hint Hint) wedding. It was a great Christmas, I am hopeful and looking forward to a great New Year, something I have never felt. Cheers!

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