How to save a life

Step one, you say we need to talk…

You are humming the song in your head now.

So I went to the therapist today. She was very nice and jumped right into it with very little worry about paperwork before hand. I don’t know what I was expecting, but I was pleasantly surprised when it was almost just like on the telly and in movies. There was a small couch, not for laying on. I really enjoyed our session, I got to talk about my life and how I felt. It was very cathartic. I’m not going into any details, but I was exhausted after only an hour and I spoke more about me in that hour than I had spoken about me in months to anyone.

I am going back next week. I think this will help me to understand me. I am how I thought, like a deep undercover detective who has spent about 46 years as a drug dealer. Eventually I started thinking like how I thought a man would think. I don’t really know me very well. Am I an introvert, or is “the guy” an introvert because I am hiding and don’t want to draw attention? Who am us, anyhow?

I came out with more questions, but on the right path. I have a good feeling about this and about where I am headed. I am getting to be me more and more, getting therapy and being positive about things. Wow, it’s been a busy year.

4 thoughts on “How to save a life

  1. I think you comment about finding the real you and is the guy introvert to avoid revealing Beth. Has the guy been the gatekeeper and protector of Beth all these years without realising it?

    Sounds like you had a great session and there is more to come. Well done on taking this step.

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  2. In a way, yes. He isn't another person. There is no other entity behind the body, just the personality I mimicked to hide who I really am. (I'm not crazy, they are crazy) 🙂 I did have a good session, thank you 🙂

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  3. Thank you Leslie. I'll be glad when I have the cosmetics part of this learned. 🙂
    I am happy to be moving forward, and to have someone to talk with that doesn't know “him” beforehand.

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